Fear of being seen is my Achille’s heel. I would say, this is the case for many creators out there. The struggle is challenging when there’s so much to say and little courage to speak to a camera or share thoughts on any digital platform.
My personal journey had rough start. In my university days, where I participated in a classroom exercise that left a mark.
Each student stood before the class in complete silence while their peers anonymously wrote down impressions on slips of paper. Later on, the individual standing would get them to gain insight into perceptions and reflect on their accuracy.
For me, the experience was excruciating. Standing there for two minutes felt like an eternity. I remember my teacher reassured me: “Don’t worry, Alice, it’ll be over soon.” Honestly, I don’t know how I managed to endure those moments. It was evident: I was afraid of being seen.
Most of the comments I received pointed that out: “she’s clearly uncomfortable with attention”. “She seems to be struggling badly.” “She seems to keep a lot to herself”. However, there was one comment that caught me off guard: “You may seem uncomfortable with attention, but you have a lot to say, and you know it.”
I kept that piece of paper. It was a powerful revelation: Someone saw through my exterior, and it shocked me. I recognized this person’s handwriting. It belonged to a classmate who worked with me for a previous team assignment. Although he barely knew me, he noticed the depth of my thoughts expressed through my ideas.
It’s because of that comment that I eventually got the courage to emerge from my shell when platforms like Blogger and Twitter started blooming. They offered endless possibilities to voice opinions and share creations. Throughout the years, I’ve done my best to tackle my fear of being seen. One of my most recent accomplishments is making videos and talking to the camera from time to time.
@alicestrathernauthor Thinking of all recent graduates out there. I’d love to share a little bit of my own experience through this bookrec. I wish someone would have told me this when I was a recent graduate! #booktok #indiebooktok #indiebooks #summerreading
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