I want to write openly about my personal fears. Since fear can be used as a GPS, I think it’d be a good exercise to see where it’s leading me. On the other hand, it’s difficult to be vulnerable in public. It’s a common belief that the more you hide your flaws, the stronger you will look.
It’s time to get rid of that belief and let my authentic self show. I’ll start by naming three of my greatest fears while elaborating a bit on them. I’ll mention where they come from and how I can overcome them.
Let’s see how this goes.
Personal fear #1: Genuinely expressing myself
I hold back. That’s a reality I’ve been facing lately. I tend not to express myself freely when writing for fear of upsetting or disappointing someone.
It’s like I’m trying to please all my readers, but this is unrealistic. When it comes to writing and sharing a certain point of view, it’s possible that an individual will agree or disagree. It’s natural. This is something that’s not in my hands to change.
All I can do is stay true to myself and write from the heart. There’s nothing wrong with sharing my own views even if they get to cause controversy.
Personal fear #2: Scenic panic
I’ve always been afraid of speaking in public. While this is pretty common, my problem is not limited to an in-person situation. It also includes online scenarios. For example: I can’t see myself doing YouTube videos or small clips for Twitter, Facebook or Instagram.
What about audio? That’s unthinkable too. However, personal branding relies heavily on audiovisual tools to increase interactions. Nowadays, I’m more serious to run my independent projects. Without these elements for my social media presence…well, it’s going to be really complicated for me if I keep hiding in my shell.
One of the best pieces of advice I’ve come across is “put yourself out there.” It’s pretty straightforward, and it makes a lot of sense. It’s time for me to overcome this personal fear and get creative.
Personal fear #3: Success
Yes, I recently found out that I’m afraid of success. I wouldn’t know what to do if things go well. I’m still trying to figure this one out. However, it sounds unfair, doesn’t it? Why wouldn’t I want to succeed? I’m not creating content with the purpose of failing.
At the same time, maybe scenic panic is feeding this fear. One thing leads to another, but at least I’m aware of these challenges so that I can get through them.
I guess I’ll do something that scares me everyday. How about you?